Watch an urge gently, without judgement or wishing the feeling wasn’t there. Treat it kindly, like a friend. And see that this feeling is impermanent, just arises but will pass, like a cloud. This is the whole meditation: just watching with curiosity and kindness, not attaching to the feeling or needing to act on it.
You’re strong, you got this. And be realistic in that things won’t go as planned, but those are learning opportunities. In the long run, you’re going to make it because you’re worth it.