You wouldn’t expect somebody like AR Rahman to have been through suicidal feeling, right? Well, he lost his dad at the age of 9, went through a lot of hardships and there was a phase in his life where he felt like a failure and thought about ending his life almost every day.
Up until 25, I used to think about suicide. Most of us feel they are not good enough. Because I lost my father, there was this void… There were so many things happening.
“[But] that in a way made me more fearless. Death is a permanent thing for everyone. Since everything created has an expiry date, so why be afraid of anything?” [A.R. Rahman/via]
These are excerpts from the book, Notes of a Dream: The Authorized Biography of AR Rahman.
Why A R Rahman Works late-night?
“If I am going deep inside something and suddenly there’s a knock on the door, I’ll come to reality from a very different world and I won’t be able to go back to the same spot again. This is one of the reasons I prefer [being at work] very early mornings like 5 a.m. or 6 a.m. or the nights.”